She isuncomfortable with compliments, because she neverbelieves them. She avoids having her picturetaken, because she knows she’s going to hate the way she looks. And when someone actually sneaksa shot in, sheuntags the photos of herself, because she doesn’t think she looks as pretty as the people around her.
This girl isbeautiful. But she doesn’t realize it. When she looks in the mirror, her eyes skim past herstrengthsto focus on herflaws. They zone in on her insecurities.
It’s not like she’s never been told that she’s beautiful before. She has been — by friends, by family members, by strangers that pass her on the street and offer their smiles.
Some of these peoplehaveasked her out. They’vetried to get her into bed. They’ve looked her in the eyes and told her how gorgeousshe is.
Boys like her. But not boy. And his opinion is the only one that matters.
As long as she’s living life without him, she won’t feel good about herself. She’s looking for love in the wrong place. She’ll keep chasing the boy that doesn’t want her instead of looking around and seeing that there are dozensof others that realize herworth.
For some unknown reason, her heartwants the boy that makes her feel ugly. The boy that refuses to give her the one thing she needs. Confidence.
But boys aren’t theonly reason she feels unattractive. She won’t let her self-worth rest entirely in the hands of men.
She’stoo hard on herself. She lets one little thing destroy her self-esteem. If she likes how she did her makeup, she’ll only be proud for a second, because as soon as she tries to take a selfie and it doesn’t come out well, she’ll be convinced that she’s ugly. That she doesn’t look as good as she thought. That the mirror was lying to her and she’s secretly a monster.
She doesn’t to care about social media, to be sucked into anonline charade, but she can’t help how she feels. If she uploads a selfie and no one likes it, she’ll scramble to take it down. To erase it from existence and hope that nobody realizes what she’s done.
She’ll actually be of a photo that she originally loved, because it didn’t get enough approval. Because the were too low.
She knows that it’s crazy to care so deeply about social media or mirrors or dating, but she does. She wants to be pretty. She wants to turn heads. And most importantly, shewants to be comfortable withherself. She wants to stop waking up and wishing she was someone else.
And she tries. She tries hard to see herself in a positive way. Shecan see the beauty in every other woman that walks by, but she’s blind to her own beauty. She doesn’t realize how stunningshe is. She never has.
She can’t magically change her self-hatred to self-love and her self-criticism to self-acceptance. But every single day, she’s trying to silence that voice that tells her she isn’t good enough. That she isn’t pretty enough.
And slowly but surely, she’ll see what everyone else sees. A beautiful girl that deserves everything the universe has to offer her.